A Sigh of Relief

Ah, let me tell you what. Spring break is a wonderful experience that should happen more than once a year, let me tell you. J'Aime made it into town today and I was finally reunited with the love of my life. I was able to hang out with her and her roommates all day long and it was an absolute blast. I swear, its like a parallel universe that I travel to when she is around. All the worries of school, work, and life are just gone.

On another note - the break has just begun and I have had a let down. Not to point fingers...Lisa MacPherson...but atleast I know she is somewhere she needs to be! I am so happy for her and Dustin. I hope they do extremely well in SLC.

On Saturday (The Birthday!) I will be going to CPK[California Pizza Kitchen] for lunch with those that are here and I will definitely be having some wonderful BBQ Chicken Pizza! Later on, we will go to BJ's and I will indulge myself in a Pizooki! (No clue if thats how it is spelt!)

Need to be taking pictures more often, the weeks events need to be cataloged for those of you not here to see!:)

Can't wait for the upcoming days. My imminent future doesn't seem so apocalyptic anymore, and I plan to keep it that way...atleast until Spring Break ends!
-LM

Things Always Feel...Apocalyptic?

Let me start out by saying things always start feeling good, but that's only because you are tricking yourself.

Informatics class started today with the teacher talking about the upcoming budget cuts. She mentioned that Informatics was included in these cuts, as a possible target to cut. She continued to say that if it does get cut, the current students will still be able to finish graduating. However, if I were to say...fail this semesters class (which is a high possibility, I do NOT understand java at all) I would not be able to get my degree in Informatics at UNLV. Needless to say, my anxiety is taking the best of me. I try so hard to understand the material but it just does NOT connect. No one in there is approachable about getting help because they are all broken into their little cliques.

After that, Psychology is a joke. Stupid Class. We just took our third test in that class and I believe I did pretty well!
*Knock on Wood*
I should know the results of that test after Spring Break!

Ah...Spring Break...The week-long time period that I can forget that school is eating me alive! Hooray! At least I will have J'Aime in town as a distraction. School seems so much harder without her constantly nagging if I did my homework. Sure, its annoying - but it gets the job done! She is such a great support for me to get things done!

Spring break wont be a walk in the park though. I have an essay due in English, a java program due in informatics, math homework for 4 sections of matrixes, and psych homework due! Don't they realize its a vacation? Not a HW-cation? :(

I really need to jump on my own back and take control of things. Control will lead me to success and I need to succeed! I would HATE to fail a class! Waste of my time and money and its such a let down! This is my future, and I need it to be perfect!

-LM

Sunday Nights Seem So Lonely

This past week was pretty crazy. I finally was starting to get back into the groove of things...I was back to working a lot at Tropical Smoothie and I was trying to crack down on school again. However, I quickly realized that I was not catching back up.

School has turned into a giant stress nightmare this semester. My classes are taught by people that hardly know more on the topic then I do. Psychology is the worst. I listen to our teacher go on about how ninja's can dream about dinosaurs eating candy canes and it means that you were repressed as a child or I could not. Hopefully one day I can look back and say "I have no clue how I passed that class, but I did it!" At this current rate though, that option is becoming less and less likely. The class I am having the hardest time with is Informatics though. I'm sorry, but if you can not speak English well enough or loud enough for someone standing ten feet away to understand, you should not be allowed to teach at a university. Its unfair for the students because there are plenty of other qualified people that could teach a class that the students could understand.

On a brighter note, work has gotten much more enjoyable. I have some wonderful friends that work there that I love working with. Many of them have unknowingly provided me with the support that I have needed these past few months. These new friends I have made are there for me when I need them most and I thank them so much. Hopefully with this new schedule I have, I will be able to work with them more often and continue to grow this bond.

Another Sunday night has drawn to a close, and now my laptop must as well.

Goodnight.

-LM