Just Another Day...

Well - Things were good for a while. Like all things, the too-good becomes to the too bad, and its now happening on a regular basis.

I need a new hobby, something independent. I don't do much on my own anymore - I think that is a problem. Even when I play video games it has something to do with helping someone out. I need something that helps me. I need something selfish.

Ive never been one to WANT to care for myself. 9 times out of 10 I will risk something of my own to help that of another. I get shot down a lot for it, with little thanks or no appreciation at all. It is a weird road to travel down, but I do it on a daily basis. I need a detour, I need a fork in the road, I need an alternate route. I want something to change for the better in my life. I want something for myself.

Any suggestions?

On another note - Im tired of being taken granted of. Sure, I want to help you out - but it doesnt mean thats all I live for. Say thanks once in a while. I get on hands and knees to do some of the things I do, and for what? Rude comments? Unfair actions? Its uncalled for and deserves some action taken against it. I don't, because I cant. Its not that I cant do anything about it, its more of a "I can't do anything because I am too nice of a person" I let people walk on me, and its detrimental to my happiness. Sometimes I want to use a baseball bat on a face, and other times a saw to a limb. At the end of the day I don't, because even then I feel like I can help them in someway.

All in all, suck it up Seth.

-LM